Grace the Old Millennial

I have always known this about myself.

I just didn’t realize how scary it can be when I feel like I no longer have a reason to get up in the morning.

I think this is why I jump into projects so quickly, I have a burning need to feel like I have a sense of purpose.

But since becoming unemployed and now starting a new business, also learned that I not only need to have a sense of purpose, I need to feel like what I’m doing is creating value in my life.

I jumped into the building an AI sales coaching business, but even that has its lulls, nothing is instant. I thrived for a couple fo weeks when there was immediate activity, something to chase after, but as soon as there’s a down period, I feel lost.

Rather than resting and using the. time to recharge, I’m overwhelmed with a sense of guilt. I feel guilty for not being more “productive”. I feel guilty for not generating “value”. I feel guilty for not learning a new language. I feel guilty for not working out and getting into the best shape of my life. As a result, I end up getting nothing done, but I’m exhausted from the nothingness.

What’s crazy is, I know I’m not just doing nothing. In this time I have progressed to the final stage of interviewing with Antler for a new AI startup idea for fighting scams. I created an AI prompt guide for sales professionals, then got frustrated when I ran into challenges with the Etsy listing. I thought I’d enjoy making videos to document this new entrepreneur phase of my life, but then I got caught up in my head and became stuck again…

I realized I’m driven by instant gratification. I need a reason to get out of bed, knowing I will accomplish something TODAY. But that’s not how it works. I need to get used to the idea that progress isn’t linear, it will take time. Consistency is key.